Great Thoughts

"It's never too late to become the person you might have been."
For everyone out there who is looking for a break from their reprised Life :-)
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Feel Good Factor

Long time no Post!! yeah it's been long. Well I don't have much these days to share with you people. Time is really flying and life seems to enjoy this roller coaster ride with new friends, new job and all together a new lifestyle. But from now I will be a regular writer here. For a change I have decided to jot down what ever interesting i read throughout the day and would love to share with you. Read this to get the flavor-

"The cat could very well be man's best friend but would never stoop to admitting it."

"The world is round; it has no point."

"Having a holiday weekend without a family member felt like putting on a sweater that had an extra arm."
What say......?
Ponder over these for the day will see you soon...

Life in a Metro

Dil khudgarz hai
fisla hai yeh fir haath se.
Kal uska raha
abh hai tera ish raat se.

O meri jaan.....

Tu aa gaya yun nazar mei,
jaise subah dopahar mei
Madhoshi yun hi nahi dil pe chaahi,
neeyat ne li angadaai
chua tune kuch ish tarah badli fiza badla sama

Omeri jaan.....

Nadaan samjhe naa yeh dil mera
Jaanu na jaanu na ishko kya hua
Teri baho ki fir se dhoondhe yeh panaah
Tu hai kahaan
O meri jaan........

Such a Trash

It's been long that I have written my last blog. Actually was busy with too much things happening around. Well I think I am lying if I am saying that, rather I never bothered to take out time for writing the blog from my not too much busy schedule.
What was I doing for past couple (more than) of weeks. Nothing actually.......
Everyday come to my office, opening my gmail sanguinely expecting my offer letter. Getting disappointment of it not nesting there, consoling myself that the process takes time. With a silly thought that what if it never comes, I start my each day. Then think a bit what am I suppose to complete by the end of the day and after that forget about it the whole day. First thing that puts a smile on face is "gud morning" from a mallu friend of mine. Without failing he does that. Then we discuss what had happened from last nite till this morning. Misery loves misery! then we discuss where to go for lunch, thinking about this chaman dude friend of ours who has problem in going in whatever we decide. But we love to discuss about him and by default every discussion ends with, "ask chaman he wont come". Then we all get back to our perfunctory activities till 1. Heading off for lunch and come back thinking few more hours and then another end of the day.
Girl next to me generally out of office. I wonder what she does, essentially she hardly works or rather she doesn't like to be pretentious. Looking busy doing nothing kinds. But man she come after 11 and by 4 she packs her bag and bids me good bye for the day. Well I am no better these days I also leave by 5:30 giving myself an excuse that I have to go for my yoga classes. Which i go and intentionally miss in the morning to catch up for that half an hr more of my morning sleep saying myself that will go in the evening. Then coming home call everyone one by one. Everyday thinking of finishing off this Jhumpa Lehri novel of mine which is dying to get out of my bag and praying to rest in peace for ages. But then one call and other, friends dropping in. I love them coming home but then at the same time I crib I don't get time for my self. If they don't come I wish them to drop in. Irony of life.
My room is at sixes and sevens. Just want to clear up the mess in life. Not happening!!! I will do it today for sure (std line coming out of my mouth every day). But today I will, missing the party at Taj Residency:(.
Well to be honest I started this blog to write something else but this muddle headed state is in a mess and now I am ending up with this trash. I need a break it seems, all you people just gimme a break I need it badly.....................................

Main

Dil mein aag hai chunna hai aasmaano ko
Ajnabee shahar mei apnana hai begaano ko
Anjaani raahon pe chalte hi jaana hai
Yeha hosla hai mera manzil ko paana hai
Jamaana jaan jaayega
Mujhe pehchaan jaayega.

So Called Real World

Last week a friend of mine sparked a topic to let me ponder over- " How has my life changed after coming out of college"
The first thing that flashed through my mind was Amir Khan's dialogue from RDB "jabh college ke ish taraf tum zindgi ko apne ishaaro mein nachaate ho, aur doosri taraf zindgi tumhe". These words seem so true when you are working your ass out and still not happy.
Can you actually compare your carefree attitude you wore during your degree days with the responsibilities that are like uninvited guest is fiddling in your mind. How much you try hard but you cannot escape from these so called office responsibilities and sophistication in your life which constantly forces you to run back to your btech days.
Everyday you get up remembering the days where you just bunking classes because you just don't feel like going to the class or because you don't want to get away with that SharukhKhan dream you just had. Office life doesn't give you liberty to respect your feelings. You cannot bunk office because you feel like.
Well you have to listen to the boss even if you know what he is saying is all bull shit.You cannot walk out of the office as you did when you didn't feel like listening to you Prof, when he was making more sense than you boss does now.
Proposing your classmate when you are not sure is it love, now cannot say it to the girl sitting in the next cabin when you are sure she is the one you want to share your work as well as home place with.
100 bucks with 4 friends around, going to a near by dhabba sharing whatever you can manage and missing it now. 100 times more money now but looking for people to treat just like that as to avoid eating alone.
100 people surrounding you all the time but no one to share your happiness or to lend you a shoulder you can sleep on while shedding off your tears.
Weekends when you had 100 submissions pending but still going for night shows for movies and now all weekends just wanting some one to call and take you out.
Loads of parties nothing to new to wear ..... now loads of new clothes no parties.
Still remember that first vodka shot, that first puff, crush on Prof(something common, replace Prof with boss;))
Maaroing niteouts without any reason now always finding out the reason and planing for the same to maaro nite our.

Interview Jitters...

It's almost one year that I gave my first interview for a job but still today the very call of interview sends shivers down my spine.I am still not clear what the fear actually is all about. Is it about confronting those new sets of intellectual(assumed) people or is it that I don't want others to make me feel that I am not all that good. Still after umpteen number of interviews that feeling of failure rips me apart.
Last week I went for one more interview, hardly prepare for these non existent companies anymore. But still, the jaunt till the comapny gate I could feel butterflies in my tummy. I was well before time. Took a deep long breath and sat on the couch at the entrance with a stupid smile pinned on my face as people say depicts your cheerful nature.Gave a close look to the every detail of the company from bean bag lying on one side to the employees going and coming every now n then. "Not bad, I want to work here, sit on that bean bag..." the first thing that came to my mind, And then like a normal piscian started day dreaming.....
The gaurd uncle( something about him makes me give this respect to him),an elderly person made me feel quite good. He made me genuinely for the first time. After 15 minutes came a young guy, pretty ordinary Bong guy. Both of us had one thing common,both of us had not done out homework properly. He asked me to write some SQL querries even he wasnt sure of. But he had something that made me feel comfortable with him in that anonymous place. Then comes an IITian, a typical one..which gave me some confidence to boast about IIT.
Well that was it.. we chatted for almost 45 mins and I was very confident for thoes 45 mins. They seemed happy to meet me and asked me to wait for the reply. Still waiting though.......
On my way back home I realised that my confidence was more like my attitude to them and I am being stupid to call my arrogance my confidence.
Well people say you learn from this, a small cost to pay for a big experience. But do we learn? I am what I am.. That's me , is being honest or being yourself is what you pay for. And there are lot more similaar questions running over my mind which I am not able to put across my blog.. I think you can put your thinking cap and reply back to me.

What Say

Last weekend's topic of discussion over coffee at my place was exploitation of women at workplace.And to my utter surprise everyone has experienced it in some form or the other. For some it's just inevitable for others its what women like.
I have my own words to describe it and after pondering over it, want yours.
For all males out there who think everything is a cake walk for gals in office... Just a smile and every thing falls into place.
My Verdict
Being a girl ,at workplace life becomes a bit complicated for at times it becomes difficult to maintain the balance between decency and arrogance. It can be as trivial as someone hitting on you or may be asking you out.. or can be mental harassment if not physical.
If you are too friendly at workplace people take you for granted and step on your self respect without even realising it and women on the other hand just can't say "NO" to anything that is happening to them , even if they realise the consequences of the same. And in the end feeling guilty of what ever happens , blaming on themselves.
If you are too friendly with your colleagues then others around also expect the same behaviour, fail to understand vibes you get from everyone is different. And then ppl who just lean on you and given a chance are ready to come on to you.Well well.... guys if gals avoid you why can't u take it, she is just not interested.
At the same time if you maintain a poise status at work people find you arrogant and not interested types.
Isn't it difficult to maintain a balance between the two. But the question is "How"?????? 9 months in the corporate office but haven't yet figured it out...Can you Help.........